Grandparents You wouldn't be here without them For those who don't know what I'm talking…
After Thought’s
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After Thought’s
By Karenza Shepherd
The emptiness you left behind could haunt casper
The heart already broken from the empty space
To always dream about you but never touch your image
One glance and I’m sunken into another somer night
“Why would i be the only one you turn away from”?
Shaken once too many time’s
Not even able to scream “wait don’t go”
love so far from my mind blocking the vision of you
Leaving me needing comfort to take your place
sounds of bells ringing from left to right
Ding Dong, Ding Dong clock’s stop, heart’s sink
I loved you from here to the moon
You loved me from one to nine months in the womb
One word could stop the pain
One word could stop the blood shed
One word could have stopped the blades to my heart
Uttered words left unspoken needing a resting place
Beer clouded the brain cutting me out
“Help”! was what i cried
No answer was what i got instead
Beer took my place in his left lobe brain
He left me lonely and undecided on life
Maybe it was time to cash my check on rock crystal’s
Stay sleeping stuck in steep steel shots
Long moon salon boots lonely souls crossing together
Innocence lost from trying to replace an unwanted ghost
Yet the look of unwillingness shown in my eyes
Money still in my pocket but from whom?
Everyday someone new pops in and out leaving only sights of hundred’s
and smells of sexual distaste and bleach to my now new skin
“Stop”! “Help”! “Leave me alone”! All i hear in my so called dreams
“Death is only on my mind since the last day you waved me goodbye!
Silent water fall’s flow down my face till I’m as dry as the sahara dessert
I create an alter ego to hide the real true me the one who will beat up 1,000 men
Love is the only thing i want in my heart but hatred is the only thing my brain feels
Silence is my new motto the less people you trust the less sadness and pain felt
My heart is now like an invisible shield protecting my heart and honor from disease ridden invaders trying to tear and break down my souls
Wanting to feel safe in your arms once again
Just wanting to feel safe in your arms once again
Left alone to search for an escape root ripping the veins from my body
Finally realizing i can never have you back
Just walk by you like a stranger i’ve never met.