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My Worst Fear
My Worst Fear
By Mariela Olvera
I used to have this thought about my mom
“Death, Death, Death”
She couldn’t move her face to the side
Without saying her last words to me.
In my arms
Would lie her body
Me
Freaking out at her motionless body
Feeling her skin like stone
Je T’aime, Je T’aime
Me, shouting her name
Calling her to wake up
‘till I feel her soul warm me up
Making me smile
But doesn’t take me with it
Watery rivers fall down my cheeks
Blurring my eyes
Tasting the sourness of my tears
They’ll just keep on splashing
Endlessly on the ground
‘Till she was buried
And I will fall into the darkness
Making the darkness swallow me with it
Je T’aime, Je T’aime
Is all I would say
I’ll never forget
My first kiss
My first hug
My first home
My first life
All those things
She gave me
And bought me
Je T’aime, Je T’aime
That is what
I’ll tell her
Everyday and every night.
I’ll write her poems, songs,
Anything for my mom
That is why
When I wake up
And see my mom
Curled up in her bed
Breathing
I say
“Thank you my Lord”.